Saturday, January 22, 2011

This time last year...

This time last year was the LONGEST WEEK of my life. I was beyond desperate for Michael to come home (it had been 11 1/2 months) and SUPERfrustrated that he was pushed back to the last flight home. I was hovering between tears and anger...and had many irrational thoughts of toilet-papering the battalion xo's house. I remember people telling me that the deployment would "fly by" or "it goes really fast when you stay busy" "2 months down already" "12 is nothing...better than 15 months". All these things, while meant to be encouragement...are insane! I remember thinking to myself, 12 months is a longgggggggggg freaking time! I thought the first 2 months went painfully slow, contrary to all my freinds' opinions. And it sucks! and no matter how busy i am it's a year i never get back with Michael so stop telling me it goes fast. Maybe for some wives it did. It definitely improved when i moved home or  who knows what Michael would have come home to. A ramen eating lifetime-addicted hermit probably!
  Anyway, somehow Gabe & i survived that tortuous week. When he came home on Feb. was the sweetest day ever!  Probably tops our wedding day. Finally that constant worry and fear you carry with you vanishes when you can see they are safe right before your eyes.  I think the deployment was good for us in some made us grow closer as a couple, i became more confident as a mom and keeping things going.  I used to hate dealing with insurance companies...well i was a pro at dealing with Tricare by the time Michael came home. Gabe was a well-adjusted baby....gave up formula and the bottle without a hitch...switched to non-baby food pretty well. Learned how to crawl about 5 seconds after getting back to texas.
 I can't believe that Michael's almost been home a year. It's the time they are home in between deployments that goes fast people...not the actual deployment. Were lucky that we get to have Michael home longer than 12 months...we get him home probably at least till October. Once we move to our next assignment there are no guarantees. In fact the only guarantee is that he will likely deploy again. It is important for Michael's development as an officer and leader that he deploys. I mean, it's what he trains to do...go fight, lead men in combat.
   So those are my reflections today. Things have been pretty slow here. I was sick most of last week and spent my days between the couch and bed. I'm finally starting to feel human again! Michael picked up some cold though, so today he'll be taking it easy. We bought pull-ups and have starting putting Gabe on the potty. He's thrilled to sit on it, but still doesn't do anything. Here's hoping I'll catch him one of these times! he continues to say about 10 new words a day and is starting to put 3 words together in simple sentences like "wash your hands" "brush your hair" "down please" "i love you" or "daddy at work". It's really exciting how much his vocab is expanding. He also shocked me yesterday by counting to 6 all by himself! He continues to be a sweet, energetic lil' guy and we love him to pieces! Hope all is well on your end. sorry no pics! I'll work on some next week!


Anonymous said...

Someone sent me a video of soldiers coming home and surprising their family. It was really touching. Keep on trucking. NYDAD

Anonymous said...

I'm so glad you and Michael found each other! And that you brought us Gabe. We treasure you and support you. Love, Carolyn & Ron

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